A Great Disappointment
Despair, disappointment, devastated… The 3 Ds. The feelings that are going through my mind now. Like a thousand knives stabbing into my heart. So painful… such pain… it hurts… so much.
I had higher expectation for last semester. I had promised myself that I would score better. Instead… but i knew that I was plagued by so many problems last semester. Financial mostly. Enough to make me not in the mood to attend classes at all. By the time I resolved the issue, it was already too late. It had already eroded my self-determination, and the damage was too significant.
Of course I have myself to blame for my mishap. I admit that I have been a bit… lazy of late. Old habits die hard I suppose. Adding to the fact that I paired up with the wrong group for my assignments, I guess it has already destroyed what was left of my hopes for a better results.
Well… I’m not going to let history repeat itself again now. I have to pull through this new semester and score at least 3.85. Otherwise, I can kiss first class honors goodbye. My dreams would be shattered if I cannot achieve this this semester and beyond. So that means… no fishing for girlfriends for the time being. So i guess all the girls will be free from my grasp for the while. hehe….
This time… it’s personal.
